A recent goal of mine is to document life a little more. Not only through pictures, but also by documenting my prayers, my thoughts, etc.
I wanted to start by writing some prayers to my girls.
But first let me also share a little something else with you. (hope you don’t mind)
My heart has really been hurt lately by several comments people have made. I know in some cases this is just ignorance, but it can be extremely hurtful to me, and our family.
The comments have been about how I feel about Annalise since she is “mine”. Ya’ll let me explain something… Katherine Grace is just as much “mine” as Annalise is “mine”. I can honestly say, that since I have experienced the pure joy of both adoption and birth… I feel absolutely NO different about either of my children. Zippo! Nothing. The day we met Katherine Grace at the hospital and we called her “ours”… was the day I became a mommy. I can tell you with absolute certainty that it didn’t feel ANY different giving birth to Annalise! The best way I can explain it…
Your husband isn’t of your blood. But you married him. And he is “yours”. Right? He’s family. Right? Adoption is simply no different. Katherine Grace is “mine” whether I gave birth to her or not. Most days I forget I didn’t carry her inside me. She feels just as much apart of me as Annalise does. I pray that more eyes would be open to seeing this – that families are made and created of nothing more than LOVE.
Okay… now that we have that cleared up…. and my baby girl is 6 MONTHS OLD TODAY… I wanted to write down a prayer. This one is for Annalise.
The Lord created you and formed you in my womb. What a joy and a blessing to be given such a gift. Something so many mothers yearn for deeply.
I count it a great blessing to have been given this task, this honor to carry a baby inside me.
Annalise, you are a gift. I pray with all my heart you always know this.
I pray you always know how special you are and how much you were and are prayed for!
Just 6 months ago I gave birth to you and met you for the very first time. I held you in my arms and loved on you. I kissed your sweet lips and saw those big, beautiful blue eyes for the first time.
I pray you continue to grow, to be healthy and to be caring and compassionate to others.
I am so blessed to be your mommy. To be able to stay home with you and care for you. To teach you, to hold you, to watch you achieve new things!
It is a just blessing to be home with you and know that I can be here during your first roll, your first crawl, the first time you walk or talk or say ma ma.
But more importantly, I am thankful I can be here by your side to teach you. To share with you about your Heavenly Father. To share with you about life and how He has blessed us, taken care of us and molded our family.
Annalise, I pray that the Lord will use me in big ways. I pray daily that you will come to know Him and seek after Him as your Savior, your Father!
Oh Annalise, how I yearn for the day when He tugs at your heart! I pray that I can be a godly example for you. That the Lord will give me a heart after His so that I can be an example for you!
I want you to know Him. I pray that you will one day, and that He will lead you!
Annalise, I pray that when you feel weak, scared, sad or even alone… that you will let Him comfort you.
I pray you feel His presence, His peace. I pray you find your joy in Him.
When your friends have walked away, or we have let you down… when this world disappoints you (because it will), I pray that you cling to the One who will never leave your side!
I pray you will continue to grow and be healthy and strong.
I pray that you will love. That you will be a giver, someone who cares more for others than yourself.
I pray that you will stand up for others when everyone is defeating them. I pray you will be a friend to all.
Annalise, I love your smile. Your eyes, oh those eyes! How they captivate me and draw me in.
From the moment you looked at me, I fell in love.
Annalise, what a treasure and a joy you are! You brighten my days, you make my mornings full of sunshine when I walk into your room!
Oh how I pray you sing praises to the Lord one day!
I pray you and your sister will always be close. That you will love one another and look after one another even after we are gone.
I pray that you will become the best of friends. That you will be kind to one another and find a special love only a sister can give.
Lord, I pray for you my sweet baby girl.
I pray that you will be humble and kind. That you will be like Him, a woman who seeks after the Lord! I pray that you will seek after Him with all your heart.
I pray when you stray away, when you lack trust that He will draw you back close to Him!
I pray for your health, and that the Lord will keep you safe.
I pray that your heart will be for those all over the world. That you will not see skin color or status… that you will have a heart to share the gospel to ALL!
I pray that you will learn how to love, and care for others the way He care for us!
I pray that you will be modest and do not follow after the world’s standards. I pray that the Lord protects you, and that you strive to be pure.
I pray that you choose to give yourself to only one man, the man God has chosen for you.
I pray for the man that you marry one day. That you will seek after a godly man who loves the Lord first and foremost!
I pray for your faith. That you will learn to place your faith in the Lord, that you might lean on Him during the unknown times, during difficult moments of doubt. Baby girl, those days will come.
More than anything in the world, I pray you have a heart after Him! I pray He tugs after your heart and that you give your life to the one true King!!! ~ Amen
Mommy loves you Annalise!
Until then… Brantley